My life as a BBW

So my dad went into surgery today and my ex matt decided to help me around the house and make sure i was emotionally okay. As you guys know, that matt goes to school 2 hours away from where i live, So he left as soon as he had everything finished for the day, went to his house, took a shower, and then left to come see me. He showed up around 5pm. I was excited since i haven't really seen him since our break up 2 months earlier. He cut his hair shorter than it was before and he wore a baseball cap. god he looked so hot. I couldn't stop looking at him. anyway, he helped me with my grocery shopping, brought in the groceries, and even made dinner. Wow he totally changed.. I love him so much. We also talked about why we broke up in the 1st place. he told me that he was 25 years old in college with no job really and I was 20 with a job and I was ready to get married and he wasn't. he also said that it was scary because i had it together at my age and he didn't at his age...

Sorry i haven't been around to write in my blog. I wish i had the time to. I've been thinking of ways to do it while I'm at work or on break at least. So whats new right? I met someone hes a awesome guy 31 yrs old someone who's mature and Loves me for me well he doesn't love me quite yet, but i have a feeling he will soon. I met him on okcupid.com fun free dating/meeting site. Our 1st date was planned for tuesday but I surprised him and saw him on sunday night. I took him to my favorite spot. the burlington water front. We talked and I knew he understood everything I was saying, which in turn, is awesome. I've known guys that dont understand words that I say or stupid shit like that.  So thats a few bonus points. We arrived at 10 and left at 12 just talking nothing else was going on... eventhough, we did hear some weird noises coming from the river which couldn't really be explained.  My butt was becoming numb and I asked if he was hungry, because I was star...