My life as a BBW

Sorry i didnt write for the past 2 days. I've been sick and not really that well mentally. I'm just so stressed out and just can't get a break from anything. anyway, I woke up at 3am to start shoveling snow... To make matters worse i live in an apartment complex where we dont need to shovel anything. Well the sidewalks had over 10 inches of snow so i had to do that from my door to my car. I was really pissed and then i got to my truck and there is another 12 inches of snow. plus whatevers on my truck. I shoveled out and started the car to melt some of the snow. I then tried to move my truck and it wouldnt move i had to put it in neutral to just push it alittle and get it out. Snow is not fun. I had to do all of this because my dads god daughter was getting knee surgery today and they were driving to our house and we would take them. Well i also shoveled another spot out for their car. At 7 30a my dad couldnt get his heart rate down. So we couldnt even go i wasted my

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Today, I tried to wake up at a decent hour since i've been sleeping till 2pm everyday. I haven't been sleeping very well at all. I now usually go to bed around 3-4am. It's been taking a tole on me. I've been trying to figure out why I can't sleep. Could it be because I dont see a good future? or could it be because I'm now unemployed again! or the fact that I'm still single after being back for a year.... I know things take time and I get it. I just dont want to live this lonely miserable life. I've tried so hard to do what I wanted and it really hasn't gotten me any further in life. Anyway, back to today. I woke up at 1pm shocker right. I looked at my phone i missed like 10 calls and had 20 text messages. Like holy god can't i get a minute to myself. This is my life on a normal day btw. So while calling everyone back and txting replies to everything. I knock on my dads door and tell him that I'm up and ready when he wants to go. I was un

I'm so sorry guys. I've been so consumed with all the bullshit of youtube, yahoo, blogtv, work and just personal issues... I just havent had the time to blog... I will be doing more blogs from now on. I'll just have to find some time and think of what to write.... I miss writing things down and just venting about it. Even sharing my thoughts and adventures with you. Anyway, I'll be thinkin of things to write!!! Sarah