A few poems that I've written

Lonely


Why does this always happen to me?
Does anyone in this world want me
Why do i have to be so lonely
the pain inside can't be described in words
I feel like nobody's out there
It seems like I'm the only one in this dreadful and sorrowful world
I have to make this stop
This pain is getting worse everyday
Soon I will die because of it.
I must stop it
I must.....

This poem was written on 3/25/05 a few days before my birthday. My parents just split a year ago and I still wasn't over it. I was in a new school no one liked me. My own sister even told people that I wasn't her sister... isn't that messed up?  I was really struggling with depression and no one would even listen. I just want people to know that I've been through a lot and that you can relate to me and I hope I inspire people to get better. 


Moving out


There's always a trill and always a will to move
selling and reusing old furniture is always good
I'm going to miss it here, but I'll never be near
to be exact 3,000 miles
This cracks me up!
It's just another fantasy, a dream perhaps
maybe I'll never wake up
hope to be here and never leave
have a family and let it go at that
i'll my my old life, but it's going to be in my past
I'm saying goodbye to this misery and sadness.

This was a big struggle for me. Leaving my home State NJ and moving 3,000 miles away to Arizona where I knew no one. I just felt like crap. I wanted to be in Nj with my family and my mother insisted that we leave. I've gotten better on the depression. It's just forgetting my past and being at peace with it that gives me problems. I'll never forgive the people who have messed with me or made me feel like I was no one. 

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