Aug 26 2010 2:34pm

I've been really stressed out these past few days. Trying to figure out if i should be with my boyfriend who's in college and I really think he should live the college life. Like going to parties and hooking up with other people. I just don't want to hold him down. I love him I do. I just don't know if we can make it work from 200 miles away.
   I feel like I have nothing to offer him. I don't have a job. I live with my sick father. I don't have a car. The list goes on and on. I'm an independent person and I hate depending on others. I've worked my ass off for everything I have and had. Okay, sorry to get off the subject, but what is a Rare Job? I was on the ouija board the other night while camping and someone on the "other side" said i should have a rare job. I've been trying to think what the hell one is.  Small business owner? Singer? artist?  I have no clue. I just want a job where i can support myself and my boyfriend when the time comes. God I hate this. I can't get a loan for college because I have no credit. I tried to get a pell grant my dad makes too much. I can't win. I can just hope my music career goes somewhere.
   I'm finished with my ranting for now... I just had no clue to write today. I'll write tommrow...

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