Another day with Matt... = )

      Today, was good... My day started out at 8am, but I went back to sleep until 9a. Then went out with my dad to eat breakfast at Medford Bagel Shop which has the best stuff ever!!! We figured that we would start out to the inspection station and get our inspection redone before the month ends. I was so shocked there were 2 cars there and 4 bays. The people were even fighting over who would go on break. Give me a FUCKING BREAK!!! 


     After that I texted my awesome Matty!!! I will miss him when he leaves me. Anyway, we decided I would come over and see him at his house. I met his parents MR. and MRS. B. They are some chill people. I love his mom I wish I  had a mom like her.  I literally spent all day with Matt.  Laying in his bed talking and smiling at him. I hate goodbyes and everything that deals with leaving for a long period of time. As you guys know, hes leaving for college and will be in the next state over. I don't want him to go and this is one of the hardest relationships that I've ever been in. I wanted to tell him that I loved him today, but I'm thinking it's way too soon and the fact that hes not going to be around much. I wanted to cry so bad. I just held it in, because I needed to be strong. He kept looking at me and telling me to feel something and I just couldn't do it. 


     To put the topping on the cake here. I'm going camping for 4 days and I will be coming back Monday afternoon. My baby, leaves on tue in the morning. I'm so not ready for this. I just have to deal with it. I say I do love him. I just don't want to be rejected at all. He's my friend and my boyfriend he's the greatest!! Well gn yall.... Will write from my blackberry tomorrow night.... 

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